I want to see

This semester I've been reading through the New Testament with my best friend, and God has been revealing so much and has been challenging me all the more. Jesus healed people, Jesus drove demons out, and Jesus gave his followers the authority to do the same. At the end of Mark, Jesus said that those things will be signs of his followers. Jesus told us to seek first the Kingdom of God, but what does that really look like? The more I read God's word, the more I feel like we have missed the mark a bit. We play in puddles with the ocean right behind us. It's no wonder that we all struggle so much to stay close to God. This is a weird analogy, but I had to watch the movie Wall-E for my honors class. When the people are living in the space station, they all sit in chairs with screens in front of their face. Everything is done for them and they don't even come in contact with other humans. The only interaction they have is done through the screen. Wall-E accidentally pushes a button that removes the screen from a woman's face. For the first time, she sees her surroundings. The rest of the film is the humans returning to where they came from, returning to what they were intended to be. Sometimes I feel like one of those over-weight people, sitting in a chair, having everything done for me while I hardly interact with people. I want to see! In Luke, two blind men are sitting on the road and somehow they know Jesus is walking down the road. They call to him, asking for mercy. Jesus asks them what they want from him. Their cry: We want to see! I want to see too. I want to see God. I don't want to constantly face this struggle of living in the world but not being a part of it. I don't think we were intended to walk the line. We are supposed to be live fully in the kingdom, fully in God's reign. What does this look like? I think it looks like prayer. I think it means listening to God, not just reading our list of things that we want done for us. We cannot be afraid. Nothing can ever separate us from God's love, so what are we to fear? Death? Jesus conquered that too. I feel challenged to discover truth. I believe that Jesus is the truth that my heart always longed for. I don't want to lean on the theologies of others. I want to seek God and read his word and discover what it has to say. Our lives are mist, we are here for a short time, so why settle for mediocrity? Luke 17:5 has become my prayer. In Luke 17, Jesus is talking about Sin, Faith, and Duty. This is where he tells his disciples that they have to forgive someone even if they sin seven times in a day, and seven times comes back repenting. Their response: Increase our Faith! It takes faith to forgive. It takes faith to follow God. Every aspect of our life requires faith. I need more.
So Lord, Increase our Faith!